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i am in a shitty mood and i just wanna ramble... this may not make sense!

To you:
You are one of the most immature person i have ever met in my entire life. You are one of those people who think they know everything, but really you don't. What you need to know is that you need to grow up. Not once do I hear please or thank you coming from your mouth, all you do is demand, demand, demand. There are people around you who care and love you, but you decide to push them further away. The sad part about this, is that you don't even realize what you're doing. People have given you excuses as to your behavior and attitude, but it is all going to end... with me. I hate that I have to pretend that everything is ok when I am around you when it isn't. You are definitely someone I do not want in my life and do not need. I appreciate your presence and company in the past but I just have realized how unimportant you are in my life.
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I cannot sleep because I have so many things going through my head. I am thinking about life and more about life. I really don't get life. Where are the rules for life? Are there rules for life? What do I need to do? I am sitting here thinking about much fucking time and stress I put into school sometimes and I just don't get it. Is school supposed to help define who you are? This school system that is fucked up within itself is supposed to help create moral and ethical citizens. Ugh I don't know. This whole entry is just words of i don't know.
I really do not understand how people spend tons of money on education and look at the economy right now, we are all going down the same path regardless of income... is there even a point of going to school to make tons of money? I just do not see why people go to school for money!!
I just see two different worlds now. I am in my parents world and I just want to be in my own. Another reason i could not sleep is because I am considering of paying for school by myself. It sounds crazy at 2am, but I shall think about it later today or during my plane ride back home.

I don't like arguments, but I always seem to be involved in them. Maybe I should learn to shut my mouth, but I have too much pride to want to have the last word. I guess there is something I shall improve on for the upcoming year.

I want to talk to someone about life! In schools I think there should also be spiritual guidance counselors, wouldn't that be great. Hmm or should I just go to the theology department hoping someone could give me an answer.

I bet you if Life was a person, it would be laughing at me right now.

I feel much better letting it out. Where is mr. optimistic, I miss mr. optimistic in my life!